Well Friday has been and gone and quite a rollercoster day, shouldn't have started drinking so early as I nearly didn't even make it home to get out. Went for pub lunch and instead of the usual double Vodka Red Bull to accompany my nachos I went for a bottle of wine. After lunch pretty much shot by and then at the end of the day got on it at work. That's right at work, knocking back bottles and feeling slightly off it. My work day hadn't even ended and I was staggering across the office. Journey home was fun, for some reason the new trains do not have toilets. I walked the length of that train and then pitstopped at Woolwich before eventually falling asleep on the next train and ending up at the last stop having to come back on a fast train and then catch another train to my station. Trains, Planes and Automobiles.
Tonight was already feeling like it was going to be a crazy night and I was not wrong. Our club hadn't been burnt down but the entrance had a make shift look about it. Bouncers told me that I was too lively and they had reports of me being lively on the bus the following week. Don't remember that but anyway I know that I can be exciteable so I just apologised and got to moving around the dancefloor. We never normally bust moves on the dancefloor but tonight, tonight was special Haha. My friend had brought with him a special guest, a Firby and I never realised how popular these little fellas were as everyone wanted to kiss and hold him. I was useless taking photos tonight as was really drunk and just trying to stay on my feet was a chore but I pulled it off and thought that my dancing was impressive. Naive was the tune of the night as everyone was in good voice when that came on and jumping around.
Then a strange thing happens, I don't usually go out looking for trouble and would rather dance the night away then bad mouth or be confrontational. I am walking across the dancefloor to go elsewhere in the club with my friend and this group are in my way so I politely ask them if I could pass and get a strange look. Unsure why I just pass through, I hear an insult and ask the guy to repeat himself as I couldn't really here what he was saying. He insults me again and then starts strangling me in front of everyone. A little out of the blue and to be honest not expected and I am thinking what should I do here. Now I was in a very bad situation a few years ago where I got bottled several times in the face so I am not prepared to be in a situation like that again. I turn to the person and PUSH him in the face, he hits the deck and I get to moving as I can't be bothered to be manhandled out of the club and get my clothes all ripped by the bouncers. Hide and Seek is not one of my strong points so it doesn't take long for them to find me and escort me to the front. Waiting at the front I feel very vulnerable and the bouncers eventually get me a cab but unsure whether I will be allowed to attend next week. I am sure this isn't the last of this anyway and it's kind of like the end of an action series. Will I be allowed in the club, will there be repercussions, do people actually like my dancing, will Firby be with us again ?? Tune in next week for another episode of Friday night Live Haha...
Still recovering from the crisis chain that we had at work the other day, very emotional and traumatic. What this basically stands for is that if there is a crisis, key word there, then we have a contact sheet that cascades through the company and we have to call each other and then call through to work and leave a voicemail. I love that I am last on the list, is that because I am unreliable or something. Well anyway did this trial work, did it ever as most people were on it as it was a Champions League night Haha.Anyway moving to the present and being a single parent can be tough, as most dads that CARE will explain we always seem to draw the short straw. We both want the best for our children and I suppose that is where the arguements stem but for me only seeing them weekends is hard. Being away from them without any real contact during the week makes it difficult as I like being involved in their lives as they are getting dependent now and they have great little characters. Hopefully things will change soon as we have both moved on in our lives and we need to concentrate on them. 
So while me and their mum are at a stand off still, I find myself looking for adventures and nights out. Tonights adventure was going to the gymnasium which if I must admit I was kind of not looking forward to but my friend is wicked so I thought I owe it to him as he has asked me so much lately. My friend is going to be huge one day, I know that's his goal and I see it in his enthusiasm. It will be like Jurassic Park when he walks across the dancefloor with peoples drinks rippling. And the tune playing will be 'What's that coming over the hill is it a monster, is it a monster...' Bring it on big boy, He Man is waiting to test you Haha. I must say at the gym I did enjoy it, not really the weiths but swimming/drowning in the pool was cool and the sauna was refreshing. We also bumped into a celebrity down there, I will update with his name and a picture later but he was in the Football Factory. Not long now until the weekend begins and apparently our main place where all roads lead has been burnt down. Not sure the full extent of the damage but we still plan on going down there. And if it is proper damaged then Super Tennants all the way by the ruins Haha. Just messing as my friend believes it is open tonight so we will be heading there tomorrow. Let the games begin...
I love the way that our society is evolving and how entertainment in general is changing. It's evolving not just to broaden appeal but to shock, to achieve something that raises the bar not just through one medium but several. As I write this message I am streaming footage live from Microsoft's X06 event and there is a lot going on that I can see being high on peoples shopping lists over the coming months. I love my entertainment so I can see myself spending a lot of money and Microsoft are sure to make a bundle as they are the market leader of the next generation. From the show so far we have seen details on software, connectivity, HD DVD, Vista and Halowars looks incredible. you can check out the game here
Moving on to shock now and last night I watched the Dirty Sanchez movie and these guys are legends. I have pierced parts of my body but I would never go to anywhere near the pain level that they do. Watching the reaction of other people watching the movie as well I knew that I wasn't just the only one. I would love to go for a night out with them but my worry would be falling asleep as they absolutely cain Pancho who I think asks for it with the way he just gets smashed all the time. The TV show is hilarious and this pushing it out even further which is expected. I read some online reviews on the movie and yes it does plunge to new depths and in an age of happy slapping and You Tube it's risky but it's crazy to watch. I don't think you will find too many people eager to mimic what goes on here anyway. I won't spoil it so go check it out as trust me it's an experience. It may not be for everyone but this is our generation and I think that we are normal. Take me for instance just an average fella... 
Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off...
It may just be me looking too much into this but other than this movie having some great quotes it also paints most of our lives. In the movie Fight Club is the release for people, tired of the routine and being slaves to the pound. The repetitiveness that we find ourselves in an all too similar cycle. My cycle on a different level to the characters of the movie pivoted on something last year. My life changed, from being lost at sea and feeling like I didn't have any respect for myself to becoming me again. Not getting deep so moving away from that but what made me relate to this movie today was how I see people that I usually see at the weekend. It reminded me of a part of the movie where they see each other outside of Fight Club.
We cook your meals, we drive your ambulances. We connect your calls, we guard you while you sleep...
It's only at the weekend where people discard the image and really let go, all be it with plenty of alcohol but they become themselves or a version of themselves that they enjoy being. Walking passed people at train stations on the way to work and the smile or nod that is more than acknowledgement but true as in saying I will see you next when you are on it. The weekend is too short, I plan on enjoying it to the fullest though and whether it's dancing the night away or being with my children the release is needed as it's what breaks the cycle and sets us apart from the next person.
