Okay so today was full of mixed emotions and I think I must of touched on everything but a climax haha. That sentence was an icebreaker there and don't think that it's a tone setter as I will probably go on one shortly and drift of course with what I write. Anyway work has been a laugh recently, especially with getting to know the new people as the management really picked some characters that complimented the team. Where I work it feels like we have our own culture and if someone new comes they have to fit in or it just doesn't work. I am part of the technical team and I have been trying to educate for want of a better word systems and what to do. I always get involved with people and over the last month all of our characters have really come into our own. I can't judge myself as that would be odd but these fellas are a lot of fun to work with. This week especially I have had a laugh with this one guy and he is safe as I know a lot of people guarded about religion but he is open to be challenged. I have learnt about Ramadan, slicing up animals, some event where you throw stones and loads. He is good with the banter and boy he can eat, which is a touch as on the same table another guy must drink through a few gallons of water an hour hahaha. Me and the other guy who hasn't been in this week need to create a talent. Then with our powers combined we could summon Captain Planet to sort out Global Warming hahahaha....
On to tonight and after my journey home it was off to see my children, I am happy that relations between me and their mother appear to have improved. Or maybe she just needed a babysitter either way though it was good to knock on the door and charge into the house to hear them screaming Daddy's here and chase them upstairs. Their mother left within seconds of my arrival so we turned up the music and then got on it with there Heelys (shoes/rollerskates). I hate that my time with them is so short and even more so that the more their mother creates distance from them with me that I find it hard to get into their lives, their daily routines and what they got up to during the last few days. I can't be too ungrateful though as this is a start again and hopefully it will be all good soon.
After taking a few photos I let my boy have a go and it was comical as he kept getting his hands in front of the lens and I think I must have deleted around ten pictures of just his finger haha. It was all going well until someone dropped a smell and I'll let you figure out who it was with the dodgy look on his face haha...
My childrens mum eventually returns after I have put them to bed and after mixed emotions I depart feeling like I have let them all down. I don't know why I should be feeling like this especially when it was her who orchestrated the majority of our relationship and how the ship finally sank. Was reassured by my camp that everything is good and that I do a lot for her and the children that goes unnoticed. Football last night was quality, although there wasn't the hoped result from Chelsea it was still good to pick up the Away goal in the 1-1 draw with Porto. I enjoyed the first half and Porto were really good in spells, shame about the two sides to Ricardo Quaresma as he was amazing at times but then poor with his antics. Onto Liverpool and how I wished that I had put a bet down on Craig Bellamy, this guy annoys the life out of me at times talking away as if he is the best player on the planet, that's all part of his bravado though. And what I like about him if I am honest. Dubbed the nutter with the putter this week due to his drunken antics attacking Riise with a golf club. Come on though who takes a golf club to Karaoke hahaha. Although Barcelona had taken the lead it was fitting that Bellamy and then Riise scored for the club. Anyway just crashing out at the moment and feeling really itchy, need to remember to moisturies the next time I have a sunbed haha. Anyone else out there feel the same haha... Oh well, feel worn out from everything and although I have only touched on topics lightly my arm hurts from typing and I feel tired and alone so going to suck my thumb and think of the future and finish typing suddenly...
